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 Vincent Van Gogh
 Dutch Post-Impressionist painter, printmaker & draftsman
born 1853 - died 1890  

 
초벌그림이 스케치가 되고 스케치가 유화가 되듯
최초의 모호한 생각을 다듬어감에 따라
그리고 최초의 덧없이 지나가는 생각을
구체적으로 실현해감에 따라 그 목표는 더 명확해질 것이고
느리지만 확실하게 성취되는 것이 아닐까
Orchard in Blossom
1888
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas



 Man with Spade in a Suburb of Paris
 1887
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 48 cm (18.9 in.), Width: 75 cm (29.53 in.)


Orchard in Blossom
 (also known as Plum Trees)
1888
National Galleries of Scotland (Scotland)
Painting - oil on canvas



 Orchard Surrounded by Cypresses
 1888
Kroller-Muller Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 65 cm (25.59 in.), Width: 81 cm (31.89 in.)



Orchard with Blossoming Apricot Trees
1888
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 65.5 cm (25.79 in.), Width: 80.5 cm (31.69 in.)
Orchard with Blossoming Plum Trees
 1888
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 60 cm (23.62 in.), Width: 80 cm (31.5 in.)



Orchard with Peach Trees in Blossom
 1888
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 65 cm (25.59 in.), Width: 81 cm (31.89 in.)



 Peach Trees in Blossom
 1888
Kroller-Muller Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 59.5 cm (23.43 in.)

Peach Trees in Blossom
 1888
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 80.5 cm (31.69 in.), Width: 59.5 cm (23.43 in.)

 Pear Tree in Blossom
1888
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 46 cm (18.11 in.)
 A Group of Cottages
1890
The State Hermitage Museum (Russia)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 60 cm (23.62 in.), Width: 73 cm (28.74 in.)  

 A Lane in the Public Garden at Arles
1888
Kroller-Muller Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.)  


 A Meadow in the Mountains: Le Mas de Saint-Paul
1889
Kroller-Muller Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 91.5 cm (36.02 in.)  

Branches with Almond Blossom
 1890
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73.5 cm (28.94 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.)  

 Blossoming Chestnut Branches
 1890
E. G. Buhrle Collection (Switzerland)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 72 cm (28.35 in.), Width: 91 cm (35.83 in.) 

 Chestnut Trees in Bloom
 1890
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 70 cm (27.56 in.), Width: 58 cm (22.83 in.) 



 Chestnut Trees in Bloom
 1890
Kroller-Muller Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 63 cm (24.8 in.), Width: 50.5 cm (19.88 in.)

 Daubigny's Garden
 1890
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 50.7 cm (19.96 in.), Width: 50.7 cm (19.96 in.)

 Doctor Gauchet's Garden in Auvers
1890
Musee d'Orsay (France)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 51.5 cm (20.28 in.)

Entrance to the Public Park in Arles
 1888
The Phillips Collection (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 72.5 cm (28.54 in.), Width: 91 cm (35.83 in.)

 Field of Spring Wheat at Sunrise
 1889
Kroller-Muller Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 72 cm (28.35 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.)  



 Field with Poppies
1890
Haags Gemeentemuseum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 91.5 cm (36.02 in.)

Field with Poppies
 1889
Kunsthalle Bremen (Germany)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 71 cm (27.95 in.), Width: 91 cm (35.83 in.)

 First Steps (after Millet)
1890
Metropolitan Museum of Art (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 72.4 cm (28.5 in.), Width: 91.2 cm (35.91 in.)

Fishing in the Spring, Pont de Clichy
1887
The Art Institute of Chicago (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas

Flowerpot with Chives
1887
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas  

 Garden in Auvers
 1890
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 64 cm (25.2 in.), Width: 80 cm (31.5 in.) 

Garden with Flowers
 1888
Haags Gemeentemuseum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 72 cm (28.35 in.), Width: 91 cm (35.83 in.)



 Garden with Flowers
1888
Metropolitan Museum of Art (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 92 cm (36.22 in.), Width: 73 cm (28.74 in.)  

 Garden with Weeping Willow
 1888
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 60.5 cm (23.82 in.), Width: 73.5 cm (28.94 in.)

 Green Wheat Fields
 (also known as p)
1890
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 93 cm (36.61 in.) 

 Green Wheat Field with Cypress
 1889
National Gallery - Prague (Czechoslovakia)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73.5 cm (28.94 in.), Width: 92.5 cm (36.42 in.)

Green Wheatfield
1890
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.) 




 Houses in Auvers
 1890
Museum of Fine Arts (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 72 cm (28.35 in.), Width: 60.5 cm (23.82 in.)   



 Landscape in the Rain
 1890
National Museums and Galleries of Wales (Wales)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 50 cm (19.69 in.), Width: 100 cm (39.37 in.)

Landscape under a Stormy Sky
1888
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas 

어쩌면 네 영혼 안에도 거대한 불길이 치솟고 있는지도 모르지
그러나 누구도 그 불을 쬐러오지는 않을것이다
지나치는 사람들이 볼수 있는것이라곤 굴뚝에서 나오는
가녀린 연기뿐이거든 그러니 그냥 가버릴수밖에






 Landscape with Carriage and Train
 1890
Pushkin Museum of Fine Arts (Russia)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 72 cm (28.35 in.), Width: 90 cm (35.43 in.)

 Landscape with Couple Walking and Crescent Moon
 1890
Museo de Arte de Sao Paulo (Brazil)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 49.5 cm (19.49 in.), Width: 45.5 cm (17.91 in.)

 Landscape with Three Trees and a House
1890
Kroller-Muller Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 64 cm (25.2 in.), Width: 78 cm (30.71 in.)

 Landscape with Trees and Figures
1889
Baltimore Museum of Art (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 49.9 cm (19.65 in.), Width: 65.4 cm (25.75 in.)

Le Peiroulets ravine
 1889
Museum of Fine Arts (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.)  
 


 Marguerite Gachet in the Garden
1890
Musee d'Orsay (France)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 46 cm (18.11 in.), Width: 55 cm (21.65 in.)



 Meadow in the Garden of Saint-Paul Hospital
 1890
National Gallery 
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 64.5 cm (25.39 in.), Width: 81 cm (31.89 in.)

 Memory of the Garden of Eden
1888
The State Hermitage Museum (Russia)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73.5 cm (28.94 in.), Width: 92.5 cm (36.42 in.)

 Mountain Landscape behind Saint-Paul Hospital
 1889
Ny Carlsberg Glyptotek (Denmark)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 70.5 cm (27.76 in.), Width: 88.5 cm (34.84 in.)

Old Cottages, Chaponval
1890
Kunsthaus - Zurich (Switzerland)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 65 cm (25.59 in.), Width: 81 cm (31.89 in.)



 Olive Grove
1889
Kroller-Muller Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 72 cm (28.35 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.)




 요즘은 양홍색과 코발트색에 푹 빠져 있다
코발트는 아주 신비로운 색으로

사물 주변의 분위기를 만들 때 이보다 더 적합한 색은 없지 싶다
카르민은 포도주의 붉은색으로 따뜻한 느낌을 주며 포도주처럼 강렬하다
에메랄드 그린도 마찬가지다
이런 색을 사용하지 않는 것은 어리석은 절약이다
카드뮴색(노란색 계열)도 마찬가지다





 Olive Grove: Bright Blue Sky
 1889
Nelson-Atkins Museum of Art (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 93 cm (36.61 in.)



 Olive Grove: Orange Sky
1889
Goteborgs Konstmuseum (Sweden)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 74 cm (29.13 in.), Width: 93 cm (36.61 in.)

 Olive Grove: Pale Blue Sky
 1889
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 72.7 cm (28.62 in.), Width: 92.1 cm (36.26 in.)

 Olive Grove with Picking Figures
 1889
Kroller-Muller Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.)

 Olive Picking
 1889
Metropolitan Museum of Art (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 91 cm (35.83 in.)

 Olive Picking
1889
National Gallery of Art - Washington (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.)

 Olive Trees
 1889
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 53.5 cm (21.06 in.), Width: 64.5 cm (25.39 in.)

Olive Trees against a Slope of a Hill
1889
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 33.5 cm (13.19 in.), Width: 40 cm (15.75 in.)



 Olive Trees with the Alpilles in the Background
1889
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 72.5 cm (28.54 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.)

Olive Trees with Yellow Sky and Sun
1889
Minneapolis Institute of Arts (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73.66 cm (29 in.), Width: 92.71 cm (36.5 in.)



 Orchard in Bloom
1888
Metropolitan Museum of Art (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas

Orchard in Bloom with Poplars
 1889
Bayerische Staatsgemaldesammlungen (Germany)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 72 cm (28.35 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.)  
  

 Peasant Girl with Yellow Straw Hat
 1890
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 92 cm (36.22 in.), Width: 73 cm (28.74 in.)



 Pine Trees against an Evening Sky
 (also known as Weatherbeaten Pine Trees)
 1889
Kroller-Muller Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 92 cm (36.22 in.), Width: 73 cm (28.74 in.)



Plain near Auvers
1890
Bayerische Staatsgemaldesammlungen (Germany)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73.3 cm (28.86 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.)
 들꽃의 고독을 배우고 싶다
누군가의 손에 꺾이지 않을 때 씨를 흘리며 
이름없이 살다가도 행복한 
들꽃의 고독을 배우고 싶다





Pollard Willow
 1882
Private collection
Painting - watercolor
Height: 38 cm (14.96 in.), Width: 56 cm (22.05 in.)

Pollard Willow
 1882
Private collection
Painting - watercolor
Height: 38 cm (14.96 in.), Width: 56 cm (22.05 in.)



 Poppies and Buttreflies
 1890
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 34.5 cm (13.58 in.), Width: 25.5 cm (10.04 in.)



 Portrait of Adeline Ravoux
1890
Cleveland Museum of Art (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 52 cm (20.47 in.), Width: 52 cm (20.47 in.)

 Portrait of Doctor Gachet
 1890
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 67 cm (26.38 in.), Width: 56 cm (22.05 in.)

 Portrait of the Postman Joseph Roulin
 1889
Kroller-Muller Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 65 cm (25.59 in.), Width: 54 cm (21.26 in.)



 Portrait of the Postman Joseph Roulin
 1889
Museum of Modern Art (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 64 cm (25.2 in.), Width: 54.5 cm (21.46 in.)

 Public Garden with Couple and Blue Fir Tree
 1888
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.)   


 Public Park with Weeping Willow: The Poet\'s Garden I
1888
The Art Institute of Chicago (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.)



 우리가 삶에 대한 열정을 간직하면서도 평온함을 유지한다면
살아가는 데 많은 도움이 될 것이다





 Quay with Men Unloading Sand Barges
1888
Museum Folkwang (Germany)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 55.1 cm (21.69 in.), Width: 66.2 cm (26.06 in.)

Rosebush i Blossom
1899
National Museum of Western Art, Tokyo (Japan)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 33 cm (12.99 in.), Width: 42 cm (16.54 in.)

 Roses and Beetle
 1890
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 33.5 cm (13.19 in.), Width: 24.5 cm (9.65 in.)

 Rowing Boats on the Banks of the Oise
 1890
Detroit Institute of the Arts (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 186.18 cm (73.3 in.), Width: 238 cm (93.7 in.)  



  Vase with Roses
 1890
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 71 cm (27.95 in.), Width: 90 cm (35.43 in.)

 Still Life with Frutillarias
 1887
Musee d'Orsay (France)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73.5 cm (28.94 in.), Width: 60.5 cm (23.82 in.)

 Still Life with Irises
1890
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 92 cm (36.22 in.), Width: 73.5 cm (28.94 in.)

 Street in Saintes-Maries
 1888
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 38 cm (14.96 in.), Width: 46 cm (18.11 in.)


  

Tree Trunks with Ivy
1889
Kroller-Muller Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 45 cm (17.72 in.), Width: 60 cm (23.62 in.)

 Trunks of Trees with Ivy
 1889
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 74 cm (29.13 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.)

 Two White Butterflies
 1889
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 55 cm (21.65 in.), Width: 45.5 cm (17.91 in.)



Two Women Crossing the Fields
 1890
McNay Art Museum (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 30.3 cm (11.93 in.), Width: 59.7 cm (23.5 in.)

 Undergrowth with Ivy
 1889
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 49 cm (19.29 in.), Width: 64 cm (25.2 in.)



 Vineyards with a View of Auvers
 1890
St. Louis Art Museum (United States)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 64.2 cm (25.28 in.), Width: 79.5 cm (31.3 in.)

 Wheatfield with Cypress
1889
National Gallery - Prague (Czechoslovakia)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73.5 cm (28.94 in.), Width: 92.5 cm (36.42 in.)

Wild Roses
1890
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 24.5 cm (9.65 in.), Width: 33 cm (12.99 in.)

 Pink Roses
 1890
Ny Carlsberg Glyptotek (Denmark)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 32 cm (12.6 in.), Width: 40.5 cm (15.94 in.)


 Sunny Lawn in a Public Park
 1888
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 60.5 cm (23.82 in.), Width: 73.5 cm (28.94 in.)

 The Garden of the Asylum in Saint-Remy
 1889
Museum Folkwang (Germany)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73.5 cm (28.94 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.)

 The Grove
 1890
Private collection
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 73 cm (28.74 in.), Width: 92 cm (36.22 in.)

 The Iris
 1889
National Gallery of Canada (Canada)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 55 cm (21.65 in.), Width: 65 cm (25.59 in.) 


 Tree Trunks in the Grass
 1890
Kroller-Muller Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 72 cm (28.35 in.), Width: 90 cm (35.43 in.)



The Voyer d'Argenson Park in Asnieres
1887
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 75.5 cm (29.72 in.), Width: 115 cm (45.28 in.)  
 
 The Pink Orchard
1888
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 64.5 cm (25.39 in.), Width: 80.5 cm (31.69 in.) 
  
 사람도 곡식에 비유할 수 있지
한알의 곡식에도 싹을 틔울 힘이 있는 것처럼
건강하고 자연스러운 사람에게도 그런 힘이 있어 
자연스런 삶이란 싹을 틔우는 것이거든 
사람들이 싹을 틔울 수 있는 힘은 
바로 사랑에서 나오는 것이겠지





 The White Orchard
1888
Van Gogh Museum (Netherlands)
Painting - oil on canvas
Height: 60 cm (23.62 in.), Width: 81 cm (31.89 in.)
   


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